and because of my culinary incompetence I am stuck at home eating nuts.

my dinner solely consisted of pine nuts.

it was great.

… I’m going to die in college.

instead of posting about things that put me in a terrible mood like I was originally planning to, I decided to make a post about things that make me [irrationally] happy.

actually I can just make a list:

* roti canai merits a separate bullet point. this is so sad it’s the first thing that comes to my head when I think happy thoughts

* eating a crapton of food and gaining weight like never before. I am going to be a fatass but it’s okay because #yolo 

* the joy I get from using yolo because I know I sound stupid

* stephanie’s house is the best how does one get any work done in there

* evelyn the taxi driver and our amazing frapp adventures

* calm classical music because I can

* nap time with aki

* anticipation of seeing cory dance at senior prom. because he promised me. this will be so ridiculously cute I’m going to die this is seriously the thing I anticipate most at senior prom

* the strange people from cell group. especially the runescape kid, bubbly girl, and asian black-esque guy. they make me feel so incredibly normal can I just be friends with them all

* parents agreed to summer workshop at art center 

* pretending to get mad at john kim when in actuality I don’t give two craps about him ditching me since I planned to ditch him anyways. but it’s okay because he doesn’t know that so I can pretend to complain teehee. I feel like this is kind of futile though since he has like no moral compass but I get the perk of yelling at him whenever I want to now yay

* finally finished stupid thematic research paper. I legitimately have no idea wtf I just wrote like if someone asked me what my thesis was I would just be like “uh hope and faith … is good”

* finally done with badminton season that was hell. it was cutting into my sleeptime and making me angry like every other day

* on the bright side the freshmen this year are really cool and charismatic I foresee great futures for all of them esp my #1 badminton inspiration jeffrey and other me patrickkkkk although I guess the other freshmen should get honorable mentions as well

* I have a friend from nevada that says he will smuggle in ferrets for me someday yay I love ferrets

* I have an a in lit now while the root of all evil has a low b or something. karma for laughing at me for having like 2% more than me jerk

* art center made a facebook group maybe I can make one e-friend now so that way when I go to art center in person I won’t have to go song tra bong status 

* green tea frappes (with less ice and skim milk because I’m healthy yeahhh). but freaking it’s not half price on frappes any more this is an ookii mondai what am I going to do without my green tea frapp.

* making evelyn and stephanie eat madellines 

* ranting complete jibberish to cory using deep terms like “faith” and “hope” and “destiny” and having him respond in all seriousness

* being able to successfully avoid chris tsai so I don’t have to blow like $349853598 a meal and go on strange excursions … in his trunk

* being offered illegal substances for the first time. I don’t know why but this makes me feel really happy it’s like a benchmark of my life. it’s like oh wow this is real world bsns 

* talking to erica always makes me feel better I don’t know why maybe it’s because we’re equally cynical. that or her amazing talent to talk while having water in her mouth

* I actually qualified for stuff at senior awards night wow I feel like my high school life was not a complete waste of 4 years. jk I’m just going for the free food

* I do not suck as bad as I thought at super smash brawl even though I can only play with pikachu and yoshi but wow I can actually like kill people sometimes

* have not had to deal with people complaining to me recently. not that I mind when people complain to me but I’m a very empathetic person and I usually end up feeling angry or sad afterwards

* for my stats survey tomorrow I will get to eat a fattening delicious lunch yay

* graduation and then going on road trips. sure it’s not like a senior trip like vacation to mongolia (think of all the lamb kebobs holy) but wowowow excited

um yeah that’s it.

wow I originally felt really bitter and angry but now I feel a lot better. note to self to keep practicing this in the future. and because I’m not ranting and raving this is publicly acceptable yay